my favorite women

blake lively <3lady gaga <3sarah jessica parker <3

let's just face it. women rule. we truly are a unique gender. we have beauty in our fingertips. we are graced with fashion, make up, hair products and styles, and we are finally getting respect. women are not ones to be messed with. right now, women are making their ways to the top and beginning to retire their husbands. HA ... bet men never thought that would happen!

i am proud to be a woman...and i want to be one of those women who makes the world a better place! oprah move over...im comin'    :)

Happy Hour

I love a good happy hour. Last night my friends Meg, Erin, Leah and i went to Benji's for their happy hour. it's amazing what girl time can do for you. we had a blast and laughed so much, talking about girl stuff, sex, boys, school everything! its nice to know that friends will always be here.

i think that the idea of happy hour if great. clearly we all need things in our lives to make us happy. we want to surround ourselves with good friends who make us look to the brighter side of life. happiness is something that you cant take for granted, we should all look at the things in our lives that make us happy and be grateful for them.

Here are 10 things that make me happy:
1. Sunshine-coming from everywhere, or even your own sunshine that you radiate
2. Friends, Beers, a camera and a hot outfit
3. SHOPPING! nothing makes me more satisfied than an all day shopping extravaganza...well maybe some things ;)
4.SEX....enough said
5. Hearing my favorite song on the radio
6. Surprises
7. My friend's being happy!
8. Corn on the cob, summertime, hot air and short shorts
9. thinking back on memories ---its always fun to reminisce
10. Love. the possibility of love. loving yourself. loving each other, spreading love through a smile

right now i am so happy with life, so happy with the soon to be unknown

change is here

tonight is my last home basketball game.

basketball has been such a huge part of my life since i was 11 years old. i cant imagine what my life is going to be like without it. without practices, games, a team! i am having a hard time comprehending just how it is going to be or how it is going to feel.

i have so many awesome memories from the sport! my first season ever playing we were 0-14 lol most of us had just begun playing and none of us were any good. but our next year we had great improvement, being 9-5! that season of 6th grade i had a game high of 29 points, when our team won 36-32. i still have a yellow note pad where i wrote out all my points and the records from that year. i scored almost 300 points as a 6th grader. we had fun plays called Nsync, Lobster, Boys---its so funny thinking back. and those plays always worked!

after that it was off to middle school, where as a 7th grader me gabrielle and aislinn were pulled up to the 9th grade team. i remember doing 2 on none constantly and foul shots/sprints in the old middle school gym that had a slippery floor and horrible lighting. the next two years i played on this team, and that is when we really starting meshing and playing well together. gabrielle's dad was the coach and was a great one. in the off seasons, we played for him under his AAU team called Chickie's Rock. we met a lot of girls from the other schools in our league that became friends to this day and we learned even more. it was at those practices that i was taught the up and under move that became to my friend janelle's deadly weapon in her career, except when she played us :)

then high school came. my 9th grade year i played both JV and varsity, totaling in 46 games. i was starting varsity and jv and playing most of both games. 10th and 11th was all varsity. my senior year was very special because the 6 of us were all so close. my best friend gabrielle and i played so well together and always knew where we were on the court. it was the first year that we made it to districts in 4 years and we worked hard but most importantly had fun.

the summer before that year i played in various shootouts, but it was the the gettysburg one that coach henry from lyco saw me play at. after that, it was a regular sunday night thing talking to him on the phone. coach ditzler came to my holiday tournament, where we beat CV in OT. I was named the tournament MVP and thats when i am pretty sure ditzler knew that she had a good player coming in.

freshmen year i started here at lyco and have ever since. ups and downs occurred as usual but my overall experience has been great and i have earned a lot of respect in the conference. i have made some of the best friends i'll probably ever have and i have been able to play a sport that i love so much and that has taught me everything about myself and others.

basketball has enriched my life in many ways and to see it come to end breaks my heart. but like all good things they must come to an end. tonight is almost that ending. our last game is saturday...after that, it's good-bye basketball. i honestly don't know where the time went or how it went by so fast but it has.

it certainly is *bittersweet*.

my friend joe

my friend Joe and i met almost 2 years ago through my best friend Gabrielle. Gab had always talked about this joe guy cause they both went to etown at the time. i came to visit her a few times but he never went out when i was there. the last weekend of sophomore year, i went and stayed with her. the next day, gab, ashley and i all went camping at ashley's camper. joe was going to come that night to drink hang out and just have fun with us. that was the first night that i met him.

that summer, joe and i hung out a lot with his friend andy. gabrielle was down in myrtle beach, so usually the 3 of us would just hang out, do nothing, go to the movies or bowling or even a phillies game. i always had so much fun with them. the following school year, we would hang out on breaks, talk from time to time and we got to see each other a definite two times every time that we played each other in basketball.

i grew to really care for him and think of him as my best guy friend. growing up, i had a best guy friend eddie but after sheldon and i ended, eddie usually hung out with him instead. also, eddie had a girlfriend which made it hard for us to spend time together....needless to say, eddie and i grew a part. i will always think of him as my best childhood friend.

but joe is mine now. i love the fact that i can be my complete self with him. i dont ever feel stupid or feel like i need to impress him. he is fun and makes me laugh. we always are laughing together. he is the type of friend that is rare! thinking of him throughout my days always brings a smile to my face and makes me feel warm inside!

Joe is sincere, genuine, funny, adorable, trusting and one of a kind! he truly has a heart of gold! not to mention he comes from a great family and has great goals. Him and I are going to rule the world :)
i believe that my best friend is the best!

the gAmEs we PLAy

how do we know if we're ever playing games with people?

and

how do we know if people are playing games with us?

it seems as if the world is all messed up and no one can get out of the mindset of playing games.

and nobody wants to be played with, so they play games too so that they aren't the one being played.

and.... are we really playing games with others, or are we just playing games with ourselves?

for me i always have a hard time making up my mind. sometimes i am one way and other times i am the complete opposite. i allow others to influence my thoughts and perceptions. i wish i was stronger than that and didn't let it happen.

i have been hanging with a guy and i have been on and off about my decision on whether or not i still want to
so he tells me that i need to make up my mind because he doesnt have time to play games
so i ask him, if we keep hanging out will it be exclusive or not?
he says im not trying to exclusive


that right there is a game to me. he wants to hang out with me but wants to hang out with other people too, keep his options open for something better that may come around.
i am too jealous of a person to just sit back and hang out with someone, start to like him, and then see him with someone else the next day. i know he is being straight forward and people think by doing that they are in the clear but that's still not cool.

i wanna be one of those girls sometimes who don't give a shit about what guys are doing with other girls than me but that's just not me.


i do care about being exclusive and being with someone for the right reasons and i want to get back on that track. i will. i just need to not text when im drunk :)

Mr. Darcy

Watching Pride and Prejudice makes me wonder, does a love like Mr. Darcy and Elizabeth Bennett's ever really exist? Can two people fall in love through conversation, dancing and the simple touch of the hand? In our world today, i would say probably not. As much as i want to believe it, its hard to believe that two people would be able to do such a thing.

"You must know... surely, you must know it was all for you. You are too generous to trifle with me. I believe you spoke with my aunt last night, and it has taught me to hope as I'd scarcely allowed myself before. If your feelings are still what they were last April, tell me so at once. My affections and wishes have not changed, but one word from you will silence me forever. If, however, your feelings have changed, I will have to tell you: you have bewitched me, body and soul, and I love, I love, I love you. I never wish to be parted from you from this day on. "

maybe i am living in the movies, but i want someone to love, love, love me. i wanna know what that type of love feels like. minus the lust. i feel as if i have been in lust just never been in love. sure, i have felt love and i feel as though i have  but what it all comes down to is lust. the sexual drive, the body talking to your head and not your heart talking to your head. sex is easy, love on the other hand is not.

i feel like a lot of us are scared to fall in love. i know that most the time i am. i want to be in love with the great guy who is amazing, who is my guy and can be with me and my friends but is a guys guy...one i can trust and love and be myself around. but i just dont think he exists yet and thats okay that he doesnt. im not ready to put myself out there with the chance of being hurt.

love and life are about taking big risks.

and love also brings confusion, jealousy, trust issues and risks of being heart broken! everyone thinks they want to be in a relationship until they are! then they want to be single...how will anyone ever really be satisfied with what they haveeee????

i think that people will be satisfied once they are satisfied with themselves. once they can say what they want and what they dont want. when they can decide where they want to go out to eat at or what they want to drink that night. as simple as it sounds, it seems as if everyone is still trying to figure it out.